PTSD is crap. I don’t like the name or stigma related to it. PTG (Post Traumatic Growth) is what it is. That’s if you fully grasp the nature of it and CHOOSE to take the more positive path over the more dismal downward spiral.
I welcome struggle. Too many people fear struggle. They wish “life were easier”. People say life is so hard. No, it’s hard work. We should celebrate struggle cause only then do we get stronger. You want to be tough? You wanna be hard? Push thru struggle, see it thru to the other side.
I have a hard time staying in bed in the morning. My mind races and the thoughts begin to flood my mind. I toss and I turn. I kick the sheets off of me then pull them up to my neck. I start to get angry then I throw the sheets back with a WHOOSH, sit straight u then spin to the right. Once my feet are on the floor I begin to move like the house is on fire. Sometimes my wife says, “Come back to bed. You need to get some rest”! “Nope” I say, “Time to get to work”.
Many people choose work, money, travel, sex, drugs, alcohol, gambling, adventure, etc. to fill them with that peace. The funny thing is, once you have peace on the inside those external acts will become unnecessary. That doesn’t mean you have to stop doing the things you enjoy but they are just unneeded.
To start off let’s back up a few years. Like 25 years or so. Growing up in a home with a loving mother and father is where it began for me. Things were normal with my two sisters and my folks. My “more active negative tendencies” began in high school. I’m not really sure what it was that led me down the path but I just started to enjoy physical confrontations.
Maybe it’s the way I’m hardwired, I don’t know. In my walk thru life I see opportunities every day. I’m more of a YES man than a NO man. See, it’s like you’ve heard before, I don’t want to be 80 or 90 years old and look back on my life and say, “I wish I would’ve”. Living conservatively is not in me. I have a hard-coded set of morals and values that I will not compromise. That being said, I’m down for whatever.
What's funny about this whole discussion is that it's not entirely true. Many FAGS (former action guys) think, "I'm gonna go work for Uncle Sugar and make MAD money". Maaaaaaybe.
Thought everyone would like to see what I should have been doing to prepare to deploy to Iraq! Things to do for a smooth transition when you find out you're deploying:
Many who know me have seen quite a bit of change in me the past month. This morning as I was having some reflection time and reading I kind of chuckled to myself. I thought, “Dude, I’ve totally taken the pill and entered the Matrix”. Things look so differently to me know. I have been awakened and I see things differently. I have a new realization of things around me in my world. I know this sounds deep and a little hokey, but it’s real.
There are a lot of jokes out there about the different ranks of the Army. What I'm fixin' to do is lay it down for all you Army hopefuls and Army family members. Let's start from the top and go down.
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